I BELIEVE IN DEATH, DESTRUCTION, CHAOS, FILTH AND GREED
I work with trauma. I always try to search for it, unwillingly. And when my trying fails; trauma, pain, depression, solitude always manage to find me and rip me in thousands of half pieces. I never hide it or from it. I’m not afraid of it and it’s sure as hell I ain’t afraid of dying alone. At least I really hope so. Briefly speaking this is what I try to show in my works: the questions of an unadapted self. The outsider, the outcast,the savage.I have hard time fitting in and surrendering to societies pressures. It’s this thing of suffering with your head up in the face of everlasting pain with utter dignity. Stoicism, yeah that’s the word,that’s my thing lately. On the other hand I’m tryin’ to show life without love in my works and all that it comes with this way of life of violence, loneliness and pain. I firmly stand by Morrissey’s words when he was in The Smiths : “ I am human , and I need to be loved just like everybody else does. “ It’s this brave act of admitting that yes, we do suffer, and we most definetly need our peace, someone to tell us that everything is gonna be allright eventually, we need empathy, we need reassurance that we are not monsters and that we are not alone.
When it comes to technique, style or whatever ; I don’t feel or want to fit in a certain way. I’m just trying to be sincere with myself and search for something that really fits my soul and feeds my inspiration. I can’t stay 8 hours in a studio working non-stop, because I need the trauma, I need to go out and live, I need something happening to me, sadly it’s just a road that eventually is gonna bring just another stab in my heart but I’m really betting all I got.
Bandi Sasha taunted the void @softspaceari March 31 - April 13 2019 @bandi_sasha_robert
Image Details: Bandi Sasha 'The Monster and the Bird' (2018) mixed media